Problems happen: UnManaging life change

Microsoft problems

NOTE: Some of you know that I maintain a second blog over here.
I’ve decided to meld the two together, because I just can’t keep up with maintaining both.
So, here’s the first crossover  post.

I know, I know, there are no problems, only “opportunities”.

Most of the time I actually do believe that, but this week I’m having trouble. On the good side, I start a new job next week. It’s an awesome with a great team doing something I can be passionate about. The downside is that its Monday to Friday 9-5 (with exceptions). I haven’t worked a 9-5 since I was 20 years old (I’m now 35). I’ve always worked shift work or just part time.

This poses a problem for my training. I mean, I can adjust my training to either to do it early in the morning or late at night (I will likely have to swim at night because of pool hours). I know it’s what most of you do, but transitioning to it is going to be tough and it’s a bit overwhelming. Learning a new job, during the busiest time for the office, adjusting to a new schedule, and keep training on top of that is overwhelming me.

My race is in 16 days and I don’t feel prepared for it at all and now I don’t want to train. I’ve got a lot to do before I start work and I know exercise will help me stay focussed, lower my stress, etc, etc… but it’s the last thing I want to do.

I don’t want to go to the race just to find out I did as well as I did last time; and that wasn’t very good. I know there’s value in starting the race, but I’ve done that 3 or 4 times before. I’m in the phase of wanting to do better and improve.

So, I really don’t know if I should take it easy or over the next few weeks and just make adjusting to the job priority #1 and forget about the race, or if I should try to keep the training load up and still go to the race.

Anyway, I’m supposed to Bike 40 / Run 20 today and it’s really muggy out. I really don’t want to and don’t know if I will.

I hate being in this mental space. Crap.